I am finding that I tend to be ok with the big challenges of life, but that I often hold onto the small day-to-day challenges – little pains, dealing with the healthcare bureaucracy, being tired, etc.
I keep these things to myself and don’t give them to God as I want to. I need to pray about why this is so. I know Matthew 10:28 “Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.” but I don’t act like I believe it.
I’m not sure if you have this same challenge or not, but I wrote this poem to share my struggle. I pray it leads you to turn to Him for the big and small things as I am learning to do.
When small frustrations come about
I tend to only want to shout
I take them not to God above
But keep them close just like a glove
Why do I fight this fight alone?
Why don’t I go to His kind throne?
Could it be I think I’m fine?
But that’s not true, I’m wrapped in twine!
I keep frustrations to myself
Where they stay on my soul’s lone shelf
They stay nearby and eat away
At my joy ‘er every day
The big life-changing parts of life
I trust to Him and have no strife
I know He has the end in mind
His eye to me is never blind
So help me Lord give all to Thee
Small things too on humbled knee
Help me know You care the same
For all of me, by Your great name